最近比较忙，所以部落格暂时搁在一边。。。
不过最近我有点“改变”，我发现自己开始对一些事物感到“麻木”。对一些人和事，我选择“冷漠”以对。不会对这些人或事有太多的“感觉"，连情绪也没有。你重视的，未必重视你，你在乎的，未必在呼你。你以为大家是朋友，到头来你在他/她眼里是可有可无的。。。气呼呼有什么用。这世界从不会因为少了谁而停止转动，所以我相信“缘分”，不只是做情侣、夫妻，做朋友也一样。不过我喜欢这样的“改变"，现在我不会失望于朋友的对待，所以我从来不会既定跟谁吃饭或外出，时机对了，大家有空，就聚一聚。。。。
酒肉朋友，我们都会有吧。无可厚非，我也会是一些人的酒肉朋友。但相比谈得来的，我的酒肉朋友的百分比是不高的。我想MC的逝世对我还是有造成一些“后遗症”，毕竟从他的事件里，让我看到了“现实”，也让我格外想念这位“故人好友”。。。。因为像他这样的好友，原来我真的不多。。
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你只是看清看透而已，没有这些情感的负担反而是好事，所以不必太在意，一切随缘会省略不少烦恼，真的！你知道吗？有很多事冥冥之中已安排好了的，相信吗？
感同身受。
我也常有这种“麻木”感。可是我并没很喜欢，觉得不象原来的自己。有点象是对事“冷”感又好象是对人和事没信心。不了。。。可能根本是对自己没信心吧。=P
Li Mei, I also ever have the same feeling of ma mu and "change", sometimes is "too tired mentally" or "already too lazy" to explain or ask or to concern,etc....连情绪也没有 is quite "scary" because I know my ben3 xing4 is not like that, inner of me still "hope" that he/she is not like that, she/he can "treat me with the same type of sincerity"...I know "expect" others to be like that isn't "right" or "clever" ....
I am "afraid" I will "get used" to that kind of ma2 mu4, because I think is because of lack of sincerity or 重视 each other that this society/world has become more and more "icy" or many become so "hypocrite"...I really don't know how to distinguish between who is "real" many times :(
ji1 suo3 bu4 yu4, wu4 shi1 yu2 ren2 is "ideal idea" which I abide by but maybe I haven't really "understand" and just applied "straightforward", so always get bullied, take advantage of and hurt by many...
I believe no need to have many friends because just to have ONE really "GOOD" friend is sufficient but that ONE GOOD FRIEND is really hard to come by :( (Thought I have a few, but reality is cruel....:( )
That's why I cried for so many days when Mc died because I feel really pitiful that such a GOOD FRIEND he is died so young and suddenly and I can understand how you feel to have lost such a nan2 de2 sincere friend.
I do have 酒肉朋友 and even if feel sad or hurt by them, will be very short and most of the times won't even bother to feel sad or hurt...simply because they are just "酒肉朋友"! but isn't that quite "scary" if everyone is like that? beause 酒肉朋友 is defined by "friend" who only "play play" "eat eat"....
Now, I am in the stage of ma mu-ing...but really worried one day I will really "get used" to ma mu-ing....(ma mu = "heart die"?? "xin1 hui1 yi4 leng3?? if "ma mu" yet actually still has a bit of "expectation" or hope inside, ??)
"你重视的，未必重视你，你在乎的，未必在呼你。" is very "realistic" but terrible thing in this world! That's what make human so "complicated and suffer"...
Li Mei, I am just saying out what I experience and feel...haha pls don't read into if I am pessimistic , sensitive,etc...ok? :P We are alike in many ways...:)
I am still mo1 suo3 how should I treat ppl (still "keep" my sincere and "simplity" yet not hurt....is soooooooooooooo hard!!! sometimes look like is 1+1=2 but yet reality is not like that....)
type very long comment , sorry folks....:P
丽梅，
很同意你的这番话。。现在我也是看的比较淡了，可以就聚一聚， 不可以就算了。所以我现在不会去expect or bother anything. 我真的很羡慕你，起码你有MC这个好朋友。有时我自己一个人静下来想时，自己根本没有一个这样的朋友。有心事时，是很可怕的。所以现在我告诉自己要坚强，at least 开心点吧。也慢慢明白好的朋友不多，值得我去关心的、珍惜的我一定会珍惜。丽梅，你会再找到像MC这样的朋友的。：〉
美女丽梅，
对你的这一篇真的有很多的感触，感同身受。
我也是才发现“你重视的，未必重视你，你在乎的，未必在乎你“是很现实的。刚发现时，真的很难过。好一段时间，很难受。 反省了好一段时间。 但还好有家人的开导，关心， 也释怀了。 只能讲好的朋友，一个就够了。
”气呼呼有什么用。这世界从不会因为少了谁而停止转动“很赞成这句话。气坏自己身体多不划算。
所谓看开人生，不是悲观而是积极乐观， 不是看破而是看透。
Hi Li Mei,
This is the real world. We have to face it in our daily life. But at least you have us to always support you! Tomorrow I will be tune in 1003 to listen to your programme. Jia You! Jia You!
MC, we all miss u..
everybody , enjoy the weekend!!!
嗨丽梅 n all！
所以咯。。。DON'T GIVE A DAMN!。（不过量力而为啦）。加油吧！
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丽梅，
不要想太多。。 我能明白你的心情。。 因为在我们的生活里，我们有多少“知心" 朋友？如果有一天“知心“ 的朋友， 离开了我们。。 会难免会感到， 难过，因为所有的快乐时光，只能放在心理。。
丽梅，加油。。开心点。。。
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