Wednesday, May 28, 2008

无题

如果“累”了,可以喊“停”吗?
如果不想“干”了,可以立刻不做吗?
如果见到“虚假”的人,可以立刻“揭发”骂人吗?

说人针对者,其实乃针对我者,说人欺负者,乃欺负我者
说做人“累”,一点也不为过。。。但这就是“现实”,无可奈何

活到这把年纪,我仍处在“茫然”处,有时会问自己“快乐”吗?
不知道,也不清楚

日子每天是这样过,我只会告诉自己对任何人与事,不要有太多反应。我开始变得“麻木”。。。麻木得有点怕

每次看到上节目的老朋友,大家都很替我开心,觉得我过得比他们充实、安稳。我不否认,但我的矛盾和无助是表面看不出来的。被听众直接的斥骂“无料”是痛心的,我没受过特高教育,所以我承认我是“幸运”的。我羡慕一些能干的同事们,我佩服他们的能力,但也因为如此,我更加的“彷徨无助”。。。。

很多事,我“累”了,不想做多解释。。。只希望上天能够再“宠一宠”我,让我能过得更快乐一点。。。

13 comments:

Unknown said...

Limei,

I know how you feel cos I'm experiencing the same things. Everything just dont seem to work out - wanted to find someone to love me but that person dont like me, change a job and hope that it will be better, but still I'm working late like a dog, want to change job with no pay cut but restricted by age...

How I wish all aspect of my life will be better... Sometime, I really have the urge to go and have my future read... so that I will not get so depress cos I know what is going to happen...

Btw, Li Mei, u got any fortune teller to recommend??? Can recommend me the one that did it for Lee Guo Huang...

hobbes_lj said...

丽梅,
不要灰心哦。。

我很喜欢你的个性
不管是电台里搞笑的那个
还是私下放松尽情写部落格的那个
觉得你很真

就像你每次在电台提到你爸妈的时候
那种很自然而然的提起
觉得你是个很孝顺的女儿

加油啦~

iN tHe BlOg said...

丽梅,

有时我也会合你一样,变得很麻木。。。常常问自己我是不是很假,还是不想去知道。怕受到伤害。。不过我相信我们的好日子会很快来的,不管面对什么事都要挺下去。我不会安慰人,因为有时我也会不开心。希望你能开心一点,路还是要走下去。一起努力!嘉又!嘉又!嘉又!(知道你怕肥,用同音字)嘻嘻 :)小猪on air 说过要生日的那天还是那个星期要开开心心,下来的一整年会恨快乐的。你要记得咯^.^

ren said...

LiMei, I don't know if is good or bad thing that whenever you post these type of comment, I always can understand how and why you feel this way because I also experiencing all these and feeling and having all these qns!

I am still currently going through all these and my depression comes "in and out" like "nobody business" (I mean noone bothers!!)

I am also having all the doubts as to how should I handle all these type of ppl(especially those who I trust and treasure but yet hurt me again and again...to let go is not easy)...Just like what I wrote in my previous posts.

I also feel that actually quite a number of ppl here also feeling the same, maybe because we are of the same type of ppl...

The feeling of lost, helpless, depressed, "doubts of things, ppl,etc"....are very terrible, especially in the night...I ever experience what ppl said "even surrounded by ppl, friends, still feel as if I am alone..."

I have been thinking a lot and feel that a lot of things is not up to us...We are true, ppl say we are "fake", we are good to them, they don't believe, we just want simplicity but ppl are so complicated,...sometimes really don't know who to trust!!

When someone hurt us, ppl will say is our fault because we allow that to happen! When someone is "bad", ppl will say is our fault because is we who are "bad" that's why we see ppl as "bad"! When someone lies, we keep quiet because don't want to malu or dispose out of good will, ppl say we are "stupid"
(allowed to be lied again and again),"ji4 chou3" (keep inside)! When someone take advantage of us, we keep quiet because try to think "positive", ppl said we should "revenge"! BUT IF WE REALLY DO LIKE WHAT THEY SAID, THEY SAY WE ARE SO BAD, SO HORRIBLE, SO PETTY...no matter what we do, they will say us but yet, they are also like us and think and do and say similar things too...Like you say, why they can and why we can't! All these I am still experiencing and they really hurt me very deeply...To let go is really not easy...


Tee, I understand but is really not a good idea to have future read because if say the fortune teller tells you no good things, will sure affect you more (normally will "doubt" the good things and will "believe or take it to heart" the bad things the fortune teller say one)...Also our fortune or fate changes with our actions...if you ever watch taiwan varity talk shows which have those "fortune tellers,etc" on show, you will slowly know that even the very popular ones will say different things on the SAME person and they also say they will also "make mistake"...I think most of us here will not recommend you to fave your future read... I know my character, so even sometimes I also have this thought, but normally will"dispel" it very quickly...

Depression rate keep rising everywhere! :( All those who never experience will never understand!

What can we do? Just like we always feel very pitiful, fragile about life, sad when see diasters or someone close died,etc, but normally after sometimes, very few (except those related person) will still remember the pain, sad,etc,...not even what they said! (because they will say must cherish ppl, don't take $ too hard, don't this and don't that....but will still "revert" to selfish thinking, even selfish and unscrupulous acts...:(...)...I am still trying to "recover" from "tremendous shock" that a person who I trust can really be so "evil"!!! (out of own interest!!!) Just can't accept!!

LiMei, Tee, hope things will get better!!

Unknown said...

Hi Li Mei

Anyone who criticizes other people as “无料”, they themselves are also “无si mi 料”. Hence dont take to heart. So long as we know we are doing our very best, we are healthy, we are taking very good care of our parents (like you did), nothing else in the world really matters.

Li Mei and everyone else who felt 'down' once a while. Pls take a deep breath, tell yourself you are great and strive on. When we are healthy, the rest are just small stuff.

Jia You everyone. Cheryl.

Unknown said...

只想说丽梅美眉加油。。。

那些有料没人缘的人时可悲的。。。

可爱-可怜没人爱!

加油喔!

禾刀 said...

累了

一天的时间,总觉得太短暂,

也许太充实变得很忙碌,

也许太盲碌变得很迷惑,

忙碌为了逃避无法释怀的悲伤,

我真的觉得,我开始累了!


忙碌了一天,应该关上神经了,

度过疲惫的心,开始了深呼吸,

背着沉重身驱,开始了该放弃,

生活使我度过了不安的情绪,

我真的感觉,我已经累了!


我该慢慢的解放自己;

我该渐渐的遗忘自己;

我该闭上无奈的双眼;

我该放下疲惫的情绪;

也该回到我有的宿命!

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minmin said...

Hi Li Mei,

maybe taking a short break is good for you, for example going for holidays etc.

Jia You!

penguin said...

丽梅,

不要觉得累。生活就是这样的,有人褒有人贬。最清楚自己的还是自己,不是别人。只要你认为你已尽力把事做好,就OK了。你还有很多支持者的哦!

开心企鹅

10cationitot03 said...

丽梅,

不要难过~也莫生气。。

到底是哪些听众啊?。。真烦、无聊又惹人厌!。。不要睬他们啦。

不是你的我,无法完全了解你的心情,不过仍要鼓励你:加油加油加油!~~你是最好的!

runzen.blogspot.com said...

We cannot stop what others say but we can control what we think. There are also many of us who support you though seldom sms to 1003. Have read yr blog someime ago but this is the 1st time responding. Think positive & must know that u are very much luckier than many of us. We can envy other's cabilities but do not belittle ourselves, it's also a blessing to be an "ordinary people". I am one of them who still feel quite happy. Happy listening to your cheerful & lively voice every morning. Keep it up!

pprong84 said...

麗梅姐,要有信心哦。。。
有些話雖然很傷人,聼了會難過,可是你還有一大班支持著你的人。
試問,天下能呈現真實自己的人有多少?!這是很多人辦不到的,而這卻是你最大的優點。
你知道嗎,你是可愛的。
你的善良和愛心,不是每個人可以做到的;
你的孝順,大家是知道的。

梅姐,別把自己的缺點放大,因爲每個人都有自己的缺點,即使他是世界上最厲害的人。
要成爲自信的人,最重要是懂得怎麽看待和善用自己的優點。

別人怎麽說,別太在乎,或許他們根本就不懂你,別讓他們的言語模糊了你。

加油!!!