Tuesday, October 21, 2008

永在怀念中


虽然我的朋友很多,但坦白说,真正能像MC这样的好友关系实在不多。。。

虽然我很感恩,在圈内我还有丽贞、韶光这些会关心我的老友,我知道我有什么事,他们都会在。。。。

韶,现在虽然长时间都在马来西亚,要找他其实也不难。见到韶,我可以感受到他对我的关怀。他很清楚我的为人,理解我的“单纯”。对于我的“困惑”,他都会跟我分享他的看法。。。在我眼里,他不是什么“影帝”,而是一个我很尊敬的大哥哥。

丽贞,我更确定我若有难,她肯定会两肋插刀。虽然我们见面的时间真的不多,但重点是我们的友情却是牢固,一碰面总是无所不谈。。。。

但我是“贪心”的,我“不甘”失去MC这样的朋友。到今天,我仍存有无法谅解上天把他带走的事实。我“不甘”为什么我会失去这个朋友,我潜意识“不甘心”也拒绝相信他不在的事实。因为在以前,我们纵然见面不多,但我每次失落时,总爱在开着车时,打电话给MC,会跟他发发牢骚,听他开解。但现在,我也只能紧握着驾驶盘,含着眼泪学习自我免疫。我现在偶尔还是会幻想MC若还在的感觉,会回忆起以前打给他时他的说话。。偶尔会看看他的手机号码。我不是患上忧郁症,只是我们以前说了太多以后我们会做些什么。像我曾跟MC说,我结婚时他要当我的司仪、以后我们老的时候,要继续互相“照应”等等的话语。我怀念着的是这个朋友曾给我的呵护和鼓舞。。。

请容许我在这一刻对他极度的想念。。。

9 comments:

mickeymouse said...

dear limei,
my hubby also passed away suddenly in yr 2006; i can feel exactly how you feel now. Ask you, the car mechanic that recommended by Chu Ming, is it at Yio Chu Kang? Cos coincidently, my hubby also met Chu Ming when he went for servicing last time. The boss also knew my hubby well, and when I told him my hubby passed on, he & his wife were very shocked! TIll now, I sometimes will ask heaven, y take him away fm mi and my child? It's so cruel. Like you now, I yearn for someone to talk to, when I am feeling down.

iN tHe BlOg said...

丽梅,

人生无常。。。虽然不认识MC,可是当我知道MC离开时,我很难过。甚至,现在看到电视有MC的画面时,也会想如果他还在。。。丽梅,你要好好的过,坚强的过,开心的过。MC会知道的。

meinu said...

hi mickeymouse,
sad to hear abt wat happened to your hubby...ya you are rite..it is at yiochukang..mr lim.
sori if i have made you recall..but be strong ya..take care :)jiayou

mickeymouse said...

dear limei,
This Mr & Mrs Lim is one funny couple,(fm the way Mr Lim communicates with his wife, do u agree?). Whenever I read yr blog about MC, I can feel exactly how you and his family feels. My heartaches everytime I recall how my hubby passed on. I hv been dependant on him and now I m forced to be independent, everything hv to handle myself, including handling the steering wheel. Actually I had nvr been to the workshop with him at all, but that time my car was 'sick' and i was panicked! Suddenly I recall my hubby told mi b4 abt this workshop so I juz drove there to try my luck. Haha, when Mr Lim saw the carplate & a woman driving, he juz asked: eh, where's the owner? not free to drive ah? so u r the wife ah? blah blah blah... Can u imagine how I reply him, my heartache the moment he speaks, cos' I hv to tell him the reasons.

Btw, I am the one who sms to u asking for the councellor, Feng Yi LIang's contact. I mentioned that I might want to join his workshop for single mom....

I love yr programme, you also jiayou ok?

happy said...

Its perfectly normal to yearn for lost beloved. i still miss my late dad after over 20 yrs. Sincerely hope time will heal ur pain. But u must also understand 'acceptance' of wat has occur will help u heal too. Its hard but not impossible. Stay hapi n take care =) xoxo

tbhjwh said...

may I have the address of the car mechanic, i am looking for one to service my 10 year old car. Tx

meinu said...

here's Mr lim's workshop :)

LIM SOON HENG AUTO ACCESS CO
ADD : 62 YIO CHU KANG S545566

TEL : 6282 0866, 6285 2114

Tell him, i recommended, see got discount anot, haha :)

减肥达人 said...

hi...丽梅!加油加油!!!

Unknown said...

我们都是有情众生,都是为“情”而来但有生必有死,这是无法改变的自然定律。“哭”不见的是坏事,哭能让你抒发对MC的情感,思念。惋惜已一事无补,珍惜您的身边人吧!让MC的往生更有意义!
“珍惜一切,因一切皆是短暂的;
不执著一切,因一切皆是虚幻的”
共勉之 :-)